I can be quite certain that all girls (maybe some
guys) between the age of 27 to 30 had gone through almost the same awkward
conversation like this during family gathering :-
Me : Hi Aunty/Uncle
XX : Hi dear! It's been some time since i last
see you. How old are you now?
Me : 27
XX : Oh...you have any boyfriend/girlfriend?
Me : Um...yes..
XX : When are you getting married?
Me : ........ (smile)
XX : (suspicious look) It's better to get married
now you know. At your age is just nice for babies after married. Too old very
difficult to get pregnant...bla bla bla
Me : .......ahahahahah..... (please leave me
alone =_=!! )
Sincerely, thanks for reminding but that's not really
a girl's call, at least not for me. One part of me is hoping for that day to
come due to all the invisible pressures. The other part of me is rejecting the
idea all together because getting married means having to leave my home,
leaving my family, starting a new family which no one knows how it’s gonna be.
After marriage, I will have to assume responsibility of a grown up. Doing house
chores, cooking ???! cleaning, doing the laundry etc. What if I couldn’t get
along with MIL?
See, that's how simply complicated thing can get
inside my tiny little head. Dilemma is what you call it. Why do I want to get
married? Is it because everyone think I should be married at this age? Or is it
because I am a bit concern of late pregnancy? Well, no. I don’t wish to rush it
because I don’t think I am ready at all. But all those pressures just kept
hitting me like machine gun and it left me no choice but to transfer that to my
other half =P
We talk about it sometimes, just as little as you
can imagine. Sometimes I tried to hint that we should get married. Sometimes I
refuse to talk about it assuming that I am not getting married anytime soon. Sometimes
I created a bit of uneasy situation quoting that you might/might not be the one
just to look less desperate (LOL). So, life goes on as usual and we are back
enjoying our dating time. Forgetting totally of getting married and stuffs like
that. Why keep the pressure exerted by outsider who has no control over what we
can chose to do? =)
Alright, enough for cover up (lol). The day came
after all. It was on my 28th Birthday that Kent send flower to my workplace for
the first time. There’s nothing to hoo-haa about receiving flowers on your
birthday but I was really, really surprised. It has always been my little
secret to receive flowers in office. I used to hope that the flower dispatch guy
would call for my name whenever they came to send flowers. Envying the lucky
girl who received the bouquet while on the other hand thinking about the sad
moment that the flowers may eventually die. Dilemma. Dilemma. Dilemma.
He asked what I would like to have for my birthday
dinner and I replied home cooked food? And there we are, having a customized
candle light dinner. I could barely remember all the details other than a heartwarming
meal. My next wish is to be back at my own home for a good shower and rest. So,
he sent me home without much complaint which he usually did. Well, maybe
because it’s my birthday.
So, I walk into the house with Kent carrying the
bouquet behind. (It was a heavy bouquet). Mum was at the living hall when I was
home. She was smiling at me so happily that I can barely see her eyes. I was
like “ Huh? Why are you so happy?” and she diverted her eye contact to Kent.
Well, stupid enough, I never felt anything fishy, just tired. So I went
straight to my room and Kent followed.
I was less than 3m from my room that I saw something
on my bed. It was pitch dark and all I could think of is “OMG! My undies are
all over my room this morning! I can’t let him see this?!?!” But it was too
late. I switched on the light while trying to divert his attention away and
again another surprised
It was another bouquet of flower and a Proposal
Ring!!
I was stunned. Kent walk ahead, grab the flowers
and in a second he’s on his knee.
Me : ….. (Surprised+Stunned+Happy+Shy+Lost)
Kent : (He looked shy and not so serious. Most
probably nervous too) Will you marry me?
Me : ….. (Stunned+Lost+Worried)
Kent : I know I may not…..(I can’t remember what
he said! I was like living in my own world that moment
Me (In my mind) : (Blank for 1 minute. Hold on.
What is this? I am getting married?? I have to leave this home? This family?) (Start
to Sob)
Kent : (Continue to convince me)
Me : (Stared at him for a moment) Can I say no?
Kent : (Confused)
Me : I am not ready yet…(nervous)
We talked about other things in between that is
irrelevant until a point
Kent : So, can I stand up now?
Me : Hahahahha…..but if you stand up means I
agreed??
Now that explained why there’s no video, no
picture and no outsiders are involve in the proposal. Kent had predicted that
this is how things gonna turn out to be (awkwardness)
